Spiritual Journey I.

Part one:

Life is a journey of self-love. In the search for your essence, you will find Love.

Self-love is the foundation of a meaningful and fulfilling life. It is a journey that begins with understanding yourself, recognizing your worth, and learning to accept and appreciate your unique qualities. It means embracing both your strengths and your weaknesses, honoring your emotional needs, and treating yourself with respect.

As you move forward on this path, you learn to express your true feelings and desires. You begin to create healthier relationships and a lifestyle that honors your authentic self.

Ultimately, the journey of self-love leads to a life of peace, joy, and love.

My first steps to "success"

My healing journey began with a strong desire to create a life that reflected my true self and made me feel joyful and fulfilled on a daily basis. One day, in my early twenties, I searched online for “how can I become successful?” I discovered many books offering tools and guidance. The greatest impact came from Brian Tracy, who helped me realize a simple truth:

If I want to be successful, I have to change myself.

I began reading more books to understand how to change my thought patterns and build a healthier belief system. Through this process, I find that many of my beliefs were rooted in a victim mindset, which was holding me back from thriving. I started creating productive daily routines and new behaviors, and slowly my entire perception of the world began to shift.

By applying the techniques from these self-help teachings, I realized that the driving force of my life was in my own hands.

What were those techniques?

I read something positive and motivational every day, and I journaled regularly.

I also began practicing self-care through yoga and meditation, which helped center my thoughts and made me more aware of my feelings and behaviors. Long walks in nature became part of my routine, helping me feel grounded and release stress.

Gratitude became a daily practice. I wrote down the things I was grateful for, and this proved to be a powerful tool for healing and growth. When I focused on gratitude, my mindset shifted, and I was able to approach life with greater positivity.

I wrote down my goals and created action plans to achieve them. I did what I could, with what I had, where I was.

I often listened to guided meditations and self hypnosis.

Beginnings

My first goal was to study at the best university in Hungary. Even when nobody believed in me, I achieved it. All we need is trust in ourselves.

My second goal was to rent an apartment closer to the university, and soon I found an amazing opportunity - an unbelievably good deal at the time.

The goals I set quickly became my reality, including winning Miss Universe Hungary.

Everything I touched seemed to turn into gold. I was happy, excited, and surrounded by miracles.

Yet, despite feeling grateful and blessed, there were moments when sadness would take over my body - a feeling of disconnection from my soul.

I felt responsible for guiding the people around me toward success, and I soon learned that we don’t teach with words - we lead by example.

Although I was successful on the outside, I often felt empty and disconnected on the inside..

My self-worth gradually became tied to my external achievements. I believe we only learn to love ourselves to the extent that our parents loved themselves.Evolution means breaking old patterns and creating new ones rooted in love and self-respect. The generations before us often prioritized pleasing the outside world, even at the cost of their inner happiness.

This must change. We need to prioritize a life that makes our hearts smile and brings us peace and joy. We can only share what we are - when we are happy and whole within ourselves, that energy naturally spreads into the world.

So while I was living my dream life on the outside, traveling the world as a queen, inside I felt increasingly disconnected.

The solution did not come from the outside world or from books. It was already written deep within my heart. To find it, I had to create my own way.

The solution did not come from the outside world or from books. It was already written deep within my heart. To find it, I started to create my own way.

Looking within

In 2019, I began my spiritual journey by isolating myself. I reconnected with nature, spending time alone in the forest. I started practicing breathwork, using my breath to enter deeper states of relaxation.

I practiced mindfulness by bringing awareness to the sensations in my body, allowing myself to fully be in the present moment. I observed my thoughts and emotions without judgment or attachment. I stayed in this space for as long as needed, allowing my soul to be heard and to connect with deeper layers of myself.

I meditated every day, and soon I felt my consciousness expanding.

This is when my true sense of success began to unfold. I felt peace, ease, and inner joy. I found the connection that made me feel whole.

In the second part of my spiritual journey, I will share how meditation deeply transformed my life - and how my experience with ayahuasca changed me.