Ayahuasca journey

I believe we can reach high states of consciousness through meditation and breathwork alone. Some people feel a deep inner calling toward ayahuasca, but it is not for everyone, and it is not necessary in order to experience profound spiritual insight.This is not a recommendation, only a personal reflection.

What is Ayahuasca?

The spirit of Ayahuasca is traditionally understood as the spirit of Mother Nature, the consciousness of the rainforest and the collective intelligence of the plant world. In indigenous Amazonian traditions, it is regarded as a teacher and guide, offering insight into the nature of reality and the deeper layers of the self and helping to open one up to the spiritual realm and the divine within. It is believed to be a powerful source of healing and transformation, connecting those who take it to their highest spiritual potential.

From a scientific perspective, ayahuasca is a psychoactive brew originating from the Amazon rainforest, used in traditional shamanic ceremonies. It is made from two main plants:

• Psychotria viridis, which contains the psychedelic compound DMT

• Banisteriopsis caapi, a vine containing MAO inhibitors that allow DMT to become active in the body

Together, these plants create an altered state of consciousness that can bring emotional, psychological, and spiritual experiences. These experiences can be intense and may include vivid colors, patterns, and shapes, as well as emotional and spiritual insights. Some people report having profound spiritual experiences during an ayahuasca ceremony, while others may have more difficult or challenging experiences. Ayahuasca carries real risks and should only ever be approached with great responsibility, proper preparation, and experienced guidance.

The heart

Overall, I participated in eight ceremonies, held over four sets of two nights with the plant medicine. Each experience was beautiful and deeply meaningful. Every ceremony felt loving, and I believe this was because I consistently focused my awareness on my heart chakra.

Within the body, there is a channel in the heart center that allows us to access expanded states of consciousness. Through the heart, we can reach the Divine and reconnect with the Source. This is a powerful inner gateway we are all gifted with - one that enables us to move beyond physical limitations and experience a deeper spiritual connection.

By opening the heart, we allow ourselves to receive love, wisdom, and guidance that are always available to us. Through this same channel, we can connect to our divine essence and uncover our true potential. The heart acts as a bridge between the physical and spiritual realms, supporting us in manifesting our highest intentions.

“Being - Love - Trust ”

Oneness

During one of my journey, I experienced a deep sense of oneness with everything. When I perceive through my heart, I feel that everything is consciousness. From that moment on, I no longer felt lonely, because I knew I am always surrounded by loving awareness.

This understanding gave me trust. We live in an ever-changing world made of energy, where everything is possible. I became aware of how important my relationship is with everything around me.

I began to ask myself:

How do I feel about this person or this situation?

Everything and everyone in my world reflects back to me how I feel within. I am the center of my world, and my world is shaped by what I create. This realization helped me choose not to judge anything or anyone, but instead to accept and love what is, as it is.

The foundation of becoming a joyful being is learning to recognize my feelings and judgments, and then gently release them. When I am free from judgment, I can move in alignment with my highest self, and life begins to flow with ease.

"When I love everything - everything loves me back"

Mirror world

We can only recognize in others what already exists within us. During one vision, I perceived a vortex-like energetic field around every person - an energy that reflects belief systems back to us. So what we notice in an other person is what we have in ourselves.

Communication, as I experienced it, happens primarily on an energetic level through vibration. Words and language come second. Meaning is filtered through the mind, and because of that, it can easily become distorted. We don’t always hear what is being said, we hear what our beliefs, emotional state, and inner conditioning allow us to hear.

When we are not centered, words can lose their original intention. This is why inner harmony matters. When we are calm, grounded, and connected to the heart, we are more able to feel the true energy behind communication - beyond the words themselves.

Infinity

As within, so without. 

When we look up at the night sky, we see stars and galaxies, and we commonly understand the universe as infinite. When we turn inward and open the eye of the heart, we discover that the same infinity exists within us. We are made of countless cells and energy, reflecting that boundless nature.

My being is infinite. It has always existed and will continue to exist beyond time. Becoming one with everything helped me understand that this present moment is all there truly is. We are constantly changing, our bodies as well, and we call this continuous movement Time. Yet all of this change happens within the ever-existing Now.

I often ask myself,

“Is my world around me, or within my mind?” 

The answer depends on perspective. From one point of view, the world exists outside of me, independently of my mind. From another, the world is created within me, shaped by my thoughts, beliefs, and perception. I believe there are different levels of consciousness, and our understanding of life depends on which level we are experiencing in the given moment.

Joy

This existence is a gift meant to be experienced. In this realm of existence, we can feel pain and pleasure, darkness and light, rising and falling, and through this full range of experiences, we grow in awareness of our true nature. I learned to be grateful for everything, because this planet is a beautiful, magical sphere filled with life. Everything is created by a greater power - colors, animals, nature - and all of it is a miracle. I choose joy as my guiding emotion, because on this frequency I can experience life fully from my soul’s perspective.

Mother Earth

There is so much more behind the eye can see in this world. During one of my ayahuasca experiences, I began to perceive sound as color. Every instrument, every tone, and even the human voice became visible - spreading through space like waves of light.

What amazed me most was not only seeing sound, but understanding it. I realized how powerful physical vibration truly is, even the frequencies that are normally invisible to the human eye. These vibrations don’t disappear the moment a sound ends; they linger in the atmosphere.

Each vibration carries an energetic signature - the intention behind it. In my vision, that intention appeared as color, imprinting itself into the space. It showed me that what we say, sing, or even think into sound leaves a subtle yet lasting energetic trace around us.

We are in the womb of Mother Earth, like little babies growing and evolving. When my mind is deeply rooted in my heart, I know that we are always safe, protected, and loved. On this journey, my purpose is to live with joy and to fully experience every moment that is gifted to me. It is safe to love this world, and it is safe to live with pleasure. I accept myself as I am, and I strive to grow into the best version of myself.

Physical Body - Importance of breathing

Breathing is one of the most essential functions of the body. It creates a constant movement in the chest and generates life-force energy. We are often so focused on the external world that we forget to take deep, conscious breaths.

Shallow breathing occurs when breaths are smaller than normal and do not fully expand the lungs. It can be caused by stress, anxiety, fear, illness, or even physical conditions such as pregnancy. Over time, shallow breathing can affect both physical and emotional well-being.

For this reason, breathing exercises are an essential part of my daily routine. They help me feel renewed, calm, and centered. When the body is in harmony, energy can flow freely, supporting both physical and mental well-being. This improves immune function, mental clarity, and overall balance, and can also help reduce inflammation, ease pain, and promote deeper, more restorative sleep.

I practice yoga every morning and again before sleep, simply listening to and following my body’s needs.

Love yourself and love your life.

Energetic Body — Dancing

During my final ayahuasca ceremony, I experienced something entirely different from the previous journeys. Instead of being taken inward through visions, I was kept fully present and gently guided into movement and dance.

My intention was to gain a deeper understanding of how the Kundalini activation process unfolds when I facilitate it. I expected insights to arrive as images or visions, yet the experience led me elsewhere - into heightened bodily awareness. I felt guided to move, to dance, and to sway my hips. The movement felt natural, fluid, and deeply embodied.

Later, during the sharing circle, several participants reflected that they could feel the energy within their body watching my movement. This confirmed what I had sensed: that conscious, present movement can transmit and amplify energy within a shared space.

At another moment, while resting deeply, I experienced an intense energetic presence. Although the space was completely dark and my eyes were covered, I perceived it as a bright light. At the same time, another person felt guided to dance. His movement also generated a beautiful, uplifting energy that filled the room.

Through this experience, I learned that presence, pleasure, and loving movement of the body can radiate powerful energy into the collective field. Moving with joy is not just personal - it is contagious and transformative.

So keep dancing, stay present, and enjoy this life.