Spiritual Journey II.

Part two:

Meditation and Ayahuasca changed my perception of life.

The journey teaches us unique lessons, shaping us into who we are meant to become.

Beginnings

Until the summer of 2019, I was traveling and partying around the world. I decided to launch a clothing line - a dream I had carried since childhood. I was always designing dresses in my mind, as I am very selective about what I wear, and the stores in Hungary rarely satisfied my vision.

At that time, one of my close friends had just finished fashion school, so I asked her to help me bring the pieces I had imagined to life. We spent almost a year designing the first collection, and I financed the entire process. On the day we were supposed to sign the contract, she disappeared - with the whole collection - claiming it as her own and saying she would launch it alone.

The disappointment pushed me deeper into the party lifestyle.

I was an occasional drinker, but because I was out with friends almost every day, alcohol became a daily habit. Over time, this negatively affected both my mental and physical health. I developed multiple food intolerances, and my body was clearly signaling imbalance.

I realized that changing diet alone is never enough. True healing also requires a shift in mindset and self-image.

From the outside - especially on social media - it looked like I was thriving: young, beautiful, traveling the world. Yet something essential was missing - my connection with my my inner being.

Preparation for Ayahuasca

I booked an ayahuasca retreat and committed to two months of preparation, which included:

• A plant-based diet

• Daily meditation

• Isolation from external stimulation (minimal talking and social contact)

• Yoga and physical training

• Listening to spiritual teachers

• Complete abstinence from alcohol

During this period, I learned what peace truly feels like. We are called human beings for a reason. My perception of life began to shift. I started prioritizing my well-being above everything else.

Feelings of wholeness and inner joy began to arise more often as I rebuilt a connection with my heart. Everything slowly came together:

Love is the key. Stillness clears the mind. True knowledge comes from the heart.

When we reconnect with our true selves, every action becomes an act of self-love

"What is this energy within us? Awareness? Love? God?!"

For the first time in my life, I felt safe simply being. The more love I gave myself, the more love I naturally expressed toward others. The world slowed down and began to feel warm, gentle, and supportive space.

What is Ayahuasca?

Ayahuasca is an Amazonian plant medicine used for centuries by indigenous cultures in South America for spiritual, mental, and physical healing. It is traditionally made from the ayahuasca vine (Banisteriopsis caapi) and the leaves of Psychotria viridis.

The medicine is taken in a ceremonial setting under the guidance of an experienced shaman. It is known to bring deep introspection, insight, and expanded states of consciousness.

Eye-opening ceremony

On the first night, I sat cross-legged in a meditation posture, keeping my spine straight and my hands resting on my knees. After drinking the plant medicine, I felt calm, focused, and deeply present.

I won’t describe the visions themselves - only what they taught me.

That night, I learned to place my full awareness in my heart and breathe slowly and deeply.

Through my inner experience, I understood that everything is energy and consciousness. This realization brought an immense sense of safety which allow me to enter deeper into my source.

Since that night, I have never felt loneliness, even when I am alone, I feel connected and loved.

I learned that I am more than my body - that the physical form is a vessel for higher consciousness. We all have access to infinite knowledge and power when we turn inward.

The first ceremony taught me surrender, trust, and inner stillness.

The second night was intense and deeply transformative. I felt ready to fully enter the experience. Peace, trust, and acceptance guided me.

We began with a collective meditation, calming our minds before drinking the medicine. I let go of my old identity - parts of the self had to dissolve in order to enter a deeper realm of awareness.

Focused on my heart and breath, I moved beyond ordinary perception.

I entered an astral journey.

Here is what I learned:

Trust: - this feeling is a doorway - when resistance dissolves, the heart opens. In that openness, higher intelligence can guide us.

Infinity: I am infinite - always existing. Awareness of the soul brings peace. Why rush through life when this moment exists eternally? Why do anything without love?

Self-love: Being in love with the person I created for this lifetime is the key. Every single part of my body - my strengths and my mistakes - was created by God / Love / the Universe / Energy. I realized how deeply I love myself only when I left my body and existed simply as a point of awareness in the Universe.

The human experience is a blessing. It is a gift that includes every part of it - this is what it means to live life. I feel grateful that I was able to leave my body for a moment, so I could truly appreciate it. So often, we are overly critical of ourselves, forgetting the true value that exists within every part of who we are

Mirror: We have an energetic mirror around our body that reflects our inner world, and that is all we are able to see. What we see in the world around us is ourselves. Everyone sees in us what exists within them, and we can only see in others what exists within us. When you feel judged by someone, they are only judging themselves. Communication does not exist in the way we believe it does - there is only energy; everything else is an illusion.

Joy: Everything we experience through our body is a miracle. This entire existence is a miracle, and every single moment of it. Life is a gift to be enjoyed with all its ups and downs, and that is what makes it beautiful and fun. The purpose of life is to enjoy the ride.

My second night was very intense, a long trip filled with pure enlightenment. I felt ready to fully enter the experience.

Peace - Trust - Acceptance was my leading emotions. At the ceremony, we are led by the medicine man and first, we did a meditation together to calm our minds then when we were relaxed, we took our drinks.

I was At One - I let go of my old self, in a way a part of me needs to die to be able to enter the Spirit realm. I focused on my heart and breathing and my visuals come, I wasn't in this dimension anymore.

I entered an astral journey. I may once make a video on my visions but here is what I learned:

Is the world around us or inside us?

We believe we see the world outside of us, yet vision occurs within the brain. We believe we touch objects, yet sensation is interpreted internally.

So where does the world truly exist?

The answer is both.

The world exists outside of us, but it is experienced within us. Our perception shapes reality, and reality shapes perception. We are deeply interconnected with everything around us.

"So just be happy and enjoy the ride because this moment is your soul's greatest creation."

Back to the "normal life"

After the retreat, I explored new ways to stay connected to my heart. I committed to daily self-care practices: self-massage, sound healing, yoga, meditation, journaling, and intentional solitude.

I chose relationships that felt aligned, supportive, and genuine. I began living with more ease and focusing on what truly brought me joy.

I learned to recognize my heart’s desires, accept every phase of my journey, and express myself authentically.

As I continued to practice these techniques, I started to feel a strong connection to my heart. I began to feel a sense of peace and joy in my everyday life. I now have a much deeper understanding of myself, and I'm able to live more authentically and wholeheartedly.

Meditation

“At One” is about being in a deep state of relaxation, connection, and awareness. It is a journey of self-discovery, letting go of the past and opening to the present moment. It is a place of peace and clarity, where you can experience a sense of oneness with all of existence.

As you let go and surrender, you can feel the unconditional love of the Universe flowing through your being. It is a journey of self-transformation and healing, a place of connection and understanding, where you can experience a connection with the divine and gain a deeper understanding of yourself.

Be in love with yourself. Be in love with the beauty of life, the laughter of children, the wonders of nature, and the joy of living. Each moment holds the potential for new love, new experiences, and new moments of joy.